Sunday Drive, yo.

I have been itching for a sunday drive. I used to do em all the time in Thatcher with Danni. I always loved driving up the mountain or out to Eden. There is just something very calming about a road trip. I convinced Missy to let me borrow her car, and I drove myself to Pocatello today after church. I loved it. Like I have mentioned many times its seriously so beautiful here, and it can be rather frustrating not being able to explore and find out what this place is all about. I get tired of only living on campus. It was way sweet to go driving today. I am soooooo looking forward to my drive home to Arizona.

SKYPE ME!

Just in case my family forgot what I looked like...I have called just about everyone tonight to see if they would skype me. No takers. Anyway, This is me and Miss just kickin it at a hockey game. Dont worry fam, ya'll will see me in 2 weeks exactly. Which reminds me, I need someone to pick me up in Vegas...

Cold Weather and Prayer.

Sometimes in life all you can do is pray. When not one person, or one idea, or one thing will solve what is hurting you, prayer is your answer. That is where peace is.

Tonight I went running. Logan is simply amazing. Its set on a hill and there is a temple, what more could a runner ask for. For whatever reason Heavenly Father has given me back my feet since I have moved here. I am finally able to run again. What a blessing. I think He knew I would need some outlet in order to cope. Im not going to pretend like its easy to run in 20 degree weather, cause it absolutely isn't. But I am learning. The incline killed me the first few times, my hands were frozen, and my ears...and my legs, the cold air stung my lungs. But with each run I have grown to appreciate the cold. The cold is always going to be there, its not like if I wait till noon it will warm up and I will be able to have a "comfortable" run, not in Logan. It likes to stay cold and get colder as the day goes on. So if I want to run I have just pick a time and go. The cold weather is always going to win, there is no changing it. But I can definitely make it work to my advantage.

And thats life, like I said up top, sometimes life is just going to be hard. no amount of tears, or strong will can change it. Its just how it is. But you have to find out where you can benefit. And I have learned that through quiet and sincere prayer you will find out how.

Sometimes we feel so weak. Like another day is too much. But as we continue to pray God will bless us. How can He not? It has been confirmed to me that if we can pray, and continue to know and believe in who we are things will always work out. There is no swindling involved in the Plan of Salvation. Now listen to this. President Uchtdorf says it best, always.

please understand that what you see and experience now is not what forever will be. You will not feel loneliness, sorrow, pain, or discouragement forever. We have the faithful promise of God that He will neither forget nor forsake those who incline their hearts to Him.²¹Have hope and faith in that promise. Learn to love your Heavenly Father and become His disciple in word and in deed.

Be assured that if you but hold on, believe in Him, and remain faithful in keeping the commandments, one day you will experience for yourselves the promises revealed to the Apostle Paul: “Eye hath not seen, nor ear heard, neither have entered into the heart of man, the things which God hath prepared for them that love him.”

Happy Valentines Day. I almost had an admirer.

Today was Valentines Day. WooHoo, I partied so hard. No but seriously I didnt get out of bed till 12. Not because it was Valentines Day but because I had to lay so still, just in case the UPS man came with my computer I bought online! Which he didnt come till 5, fyi. But, some exciting things happened in between that time.

its 12:05, the door bell rings, I spring out of bed and its a pizza delivery guy, not the UPS guy, Im immediately bummed. He says "are you Jackie?" Im like "yes, what of it?"..."here is a heart shaped pizza for you!". Wow. not very romantic, but very filling. I didnt complain. But who on earth is going to send me something so...weird. Pizza isnt very "cute". So im going through my list of the 10 boys I know here who MIGHT possibly be so inclined to do such a thing. I had nothing. All the boys I know are like my brothers. no way no how. Unless its some creeper in my ward. Because lets be honest this person has to know my address. So then I think my tutor(s)? There is no way they look at me like that. So I ex-ed them off the list. It seriously freaked me out, But at the same time Im beginning to get a little narcissistic, and start to consider that someone actually thought I was a babe who absolutely needed pizza to fill my tummy for lunch. I'll admit, I got flattered. It didn't last too long though. I had a hunch it was Chea this whole time. And it was. I finally eeked it out of her at the end of the day. She played super dumb for awhile though, she even called me and helped me go over some boys that it might possibly be. I dont know if I should love her or hate her for that.

Eh, I'll love her for that. this day is 100 percent gay. (such a politically incorrect term to use, but my brain is too tired to think of something clever).

It is nice to know that I am loved though. Oh and not forgotten, thats an important one too, thanks Chea.