The curve ball.

How do you start the story that begins with every dream you ever had coming true. How do you begin that tender story?

Humbled. Deeply Humbled.

My last post I left you all with the Quote from Elder Holland. "Some blessings come soon, some come late...but for those who embrace the Gospel of Jesus Christ THEY COME".

And he came. Hayden came back.

Just when my heart stopped aching over him, just when he stopped being my secret prayer, when I finally started to find my new identity aside from him... He found me. It is so cliche, but the only thing I can think of when I think of mine and his love story is that God is aware of us. He wants his children happy. And we all know Hayden made me happy. I am so blessed to have him back. It was great being the strong bitter girl who got broken up with, the girl who was going to conquer the world with all her spite...but I must say its good to just be in love. Its good to be back, I missed telling my blog audience how much I love him, and how I couldn't wait to start a life with such a perfect man. Reality. That is now my reality. I couldn't be in more love, or more happy with exactly how my life has played out. The hurt I felt all seems like centuries ago. His mission is like some crazy dream, I cant believe I wrote him for as long as I did. And thats one of the beautiful perks, is that were different people. Were older, he is certainly more mature, we have new visions, the two of us were able to experience life changing things while we were apart...but those things have now bonded us. I wouldn't be the Jackie I am today without those 8 months of hurt. And Hayd wouldn't be who he is without being so completely engulfed in the last 6 months of his mission, and he needed this summer to discover what was important to him. Again, not exactly my time table. But God knows whats up.

My decision to pick up and move forward with Hayden was one that taught me to forgive, and Him coming back to me consisted of eating the worlds biggest humble pie. Cause lets be honest, my family was a little less than thrilled when I told them the initial news, and no one was ready to give a "welcome back" hug. But I was. I have always known it was him. Even when everyone told me he wasn't. When no one believed we could wait for each other, I still had faith. Hayden is my own miracle. The miracle I never knew I needed, he has changed my life in too many important ways. And he does it in unsuspecting ways. So typical him. He LOVES surprises. And Im pretty sure I have a life full of those with him. Subtlety isnt exactly his specialty. But that is why I love him. He isn't main stream.  He would break my heart, confirm it, and then come crawling back, and a month and a half later ask me to marry him. were a match though. Because I will, without hesitance, jump on board.

So Im sure you gathered the gist of what has happened. Were in love, and were getting married!!!! I seriously am the luckiest girl in the world to get to spend the rest of my life with someone as crazy as I am, someone who rivals my funnies, someone with abnormal amounts of drive, someone so naturally smart and someone who I know will never stop loving me. He is going to always take care of me, and its my favorite that he isnt scared of my arthritis. cause to me its quite freaky, but he still sees someone strong, someone who will fight, and he believes in me.  He is what we call the package, people. Everyday I spend with him is like coming home, soft and sweet, it was all worth the wait and pain.

So mark your calendars, January 19. Here comes the bride!!!!!!!!!